I need to refocus each morning and bring myself back to God, my higher power. It is difficult to remain in His presence when I know I fall short of my own goals in life. In this case I am speaking about my weight issues. Recently because I suffered a frozen shoulder and an ITB injury I have been in pain fairly constantly for a few months. I tried massage therapy to relax my muscles which seemed very tense and stressed. I also went to a pain clinic where I received injections (not steroids but non-inflammatory). I thought I was to the end of my rope.
God Heard My Cry
I was in so much pain that I was just so DONE with it all. Last week I got to the point where I just sort of crumbled and spoke to Yehovah through my Yeshua, imploring Him to please listen to me and bring me back into health, not a far time off goal but NOW!
My mind raced with thoughts of people who I knew that suffered from obesity to the point of physical disability--I knew I did not want that, nor did I believe that God wanted that for me. Mostly I said, "Okay Lord, enough is enough. If you wanted to break me, I am there. Now please mend me. Not only PLEASE MEND ME, but I give you full permission to mend me. I will cooperate with you completely in this recovery of my physical well being. Show me what I need to do, when to do it, and how to do it.
I surprised myself by crying out in this way because I felt I was so happy with my spiritual walk, I was shocked at how much I was actually deprived of being 100% complete. Some how i felt Yeshua was listening, taking note and actually delighting in my breakdown/breakthrough. I do say breakthrough because the result of this little chat with God was a new resolve to try HARDER, NOT give up and keep persisting, NO MATTER WHAT.
My chiropractor told me that I needed to exercise more everyday. Since that time I began doing small things such as leg lifts, stomach crunches, stretches and just about anything I could find to build up my muscle mass.
I am GRATEFUL that yesterday when I went to my chiropractor he was overjoyed that my flexibility is greatly improved. I went from struggling to get my left leg off the table more than 2 inches, to nearly having my leg up to a 90 degree angle.
What a blessing!!! Thank you YESHUA for reminding me the more I turn to you, the more I can succeed in becoming pain free and eventually fat free and physically fit.